They Called Her Jezebel

A name meant to shame became the spark that set her free.

I was already out of church when I wrote my first book—still healing, still unpacking, still learning how to trust myself after years of spiritual control. I wrote it under a pseudonym, Lalia Amadore, not out of shame, but out of self-preservation.

The book was called They Called Her Jezebel, and it was my way of saying: You don’t have to live your life bowing to broken systems and corrupt church leaders. You don’t have to keep performing submission to be seen as “good” or “godly.” You don’t have to stay silent just because someone holding a Bible told you to.

That book was for the women like me—the ones who left, the ones who were pushed out, the ones who stayed too long. It was written in a time when I still wasn’t sure I could say all of this out loud.

But now?
Now I’m saying it out loud, out front, and in my own damn name.

My newest book, If I’m Jezebel, So Be It, isn’t just a continuation. It’s a reclamation. It’s the voice I wish I had back then.

And I’m just getting started.

Divine, Not Damned

Not a redemption arc – a spiritual jailbreak.

This isn’t the sanitized testimony they hoped I’d write.
It doesn’t end in repentance. It starts with rebellion.

Divine, Not Damned is the unapproved, uninvited, and unrepentant story of what happens when a woman stops shrinking to fit a pew and starts asking the questions polite Christians avoid.

It’s for the ones who were shunned for being too much.
And the ones who left before the shame could catch up.
For those who were burned at the stake—or just slowly ghosted for not towing the spiritual party line.

Part memoir, part middle finger (with love), this book walks through faith deconstruction, religious trauma, and the holy act of reclaiming your own damn soul.

They wouldn’t endorse it.
They wouldn’t stock it.
Hell, they might pray against it.

Read it anyway.

Jennifer’s Choice: A Right to Die Story

When goodbye is an act of love.

On November 13, 2021, my sister Jennifer chose medical assistance in dying after an 18-month battle with metastatic breast cancer. She didn’t go quietly—she went consciously, courageously, and on her own terms. This book is my tribute to her.

Jennifer was fiercely independent, even in illness. Diagnosed with Stage IV inflammatory breast cancer during the pandemic, she endured chemotherapy, surgery, and radiation—but when treatment became suffering without hope, she made a different choice.

Jennifer’s Choice is the story of her final year and a half—told through my eyes, as the sister who walked beside her through every appointment, every heartbreak, and finally, through her final goodbye.

It’s a story about life, love, autonomy, and the kind of strength most people never talk about.

This isn’t just a book about death.
It’s a book about choice. And about what it means to honour someone all the way to the end.

Breathe: An Anticipatory Grief Journal

Because healing takes breath, space and honesty.

Created from the raw, tender spaces of my own anticipatory grief as I watched my sister’s final journey, Breathe is more than a journal—it’s a lifeline.

Conceived as a companion to Jennifer’s Choice: A Right to Die Story, this 82‑page guided journal offers gentle prompts and blank pages to help you name your feelings, find your breath, and be seen through the heartache. It’s the resource I wish I’d had—one I hope will hold space for you, too, if you’re walking through the ache that comes before loss.